5 Years Ago

Five years ago, I was posting on social media every single day (sometimes 2-3 times per day) talking about my workouts and smoothies. I made LONG lists of every single person I’ve ever known, then sent 5-10 of them scripted private messages daily. I called myself an entrepreneur but I was following my up-line’s strategy and still getting my checks from a big company. I wasn’t truly working for me or by my strategy.

I was banging my head against the wall wondering why this wasn’t working for me, wondering what was wrong with me, and wondering why I didn’t seem to have what it took to be “successful.”

I wish I could go back and tell her: “You are perfect, this just isn’t your thing.” (Though, I’m not sure I would have listened. With that 3/1 profile I’m all about that trial and error).

I’m not here to bash MLMs because I think they’re perfect for some people. Plus, I learned so much about marketing through that experience that led me to who I am today. But, there are so many reasons why it wasn’t for me.

Learning about my Human Design gave me, and continues to give me the gift of awareness, the gift of coming home to myself, and the gift of permission to be and do what is truly meant for me… even if it’s far from the “norm.”

When I followed my strategy and authority, it led me to starting my own business. One where I am truly the boss. I make my own rules and I get to impact people globally everyday with the magic that is awareness, permission, and home within oneself.

And even though I have learned how to eat, make money, work, parent, communicate, structure my days, and heal through living my design…

Even though I feel more me than I have ever felt in my life…

My world is still being turned upside down.

2 Years Ago

Two years ago, I was giving away free human design chart readings. I read dozens of charts for my family, friends, friends of friends, and even random people who found me on social media. I even had a couple of four hour in-person sessions (which as a Manifestor was exhausting)!

I undercharged for my services until one day I had enough.

I’d had enough. I was tired and annoyed (Manifestor anger). I valued the knowledge and experience I gained through offering free readings, but I knew it was time to change. I wanted to step out of being the only reason my business ran, and step into allowing it to work for me so I could spend more intentional time with my children.

So I started to charge for my readings in order to feel supported in giving my time, energy, skill, and intuition for a value that reflected what I was providing. And every time I increased my prices, I felt the sting of imposter syndrome.

When it comes down to it, I had to learn that it’s simply an exchange of energy. Getting paid is a part of the process of staying in your frequency with your work. With time, experience, knowledge, and demand, your energy becomes more and more valuable to you and to your clients (and potential clients).

Now, I teach entrepreneurs how to step out of their conditioning and do the work to feel aligned with charging at the price point that supports their time, energy, and skill.

After going through the process myself, I can intuitively guide others to stay in their integrity and on their frequency. I teach my clients to recognize the indicator of their “not-self” showing up as anger, frustration, disappointment, and bitterness. I teach them how to trust themselves.

Every step that I take towards purpose in life, in business, and in living my design, I feel more me than I have ever felt in my life.

Learning about my Human Design taught me how to allow my business to flow with each wave, how to make decisions that align with my bigger vision, and how to step back and allow my business to succeed while releasing control.

So even when I’m exhausted and things feel hard and I haven’t been “working” much at all, things still get to move within my business. I gain new followers, I get new applicants to my programs, and my business keeps on going.

This change has been so crucial to moving me to where I am today. It has been the pivotal support in allowing me to enter this next stage in my life and business.

Now

For quite some time, my partner Mike and I have played with the idea of leaving Hawaii and moving to the Northeast in order to be closer to family. If you’re a parent, you likely know our motivation for entertaining these thoughts because parenting can be intense and exhausting when you don’t have family around to be your support system.

These thoughts were more like a far-off fantasy that seemed especially delicious on Saturday mornings at 5:50 am when our Generator son would wake up with a fully charged battery. We would dream of… “If we live in Massachusetts, we could drop him off at my mom’s and go back to sleep.”

As an emotional Manifestor, I’ve had to balance out the strong urge to pick up and leave, with my emotional waves. With a decision this big and life changing, I had to be emotionally clear and neutral before making any moves.

I finally reached that moment of calm clarity early in Spring 2021 and communicated to Mike that yes, it is time. Coincidentally (or maybe not), things changed for him at work just days later. Our opportunity for a new start was more real than ever before.

Two months after this, we had our son enrolled in Kindergarten at a Waldorf school in Rhode Island, half our belongings were donated, sold, or packed into boxes, and I had booked our one-way flights to Boston.

I found myself staring several contradictory truths in the face, living multiple stories at once. In one moment, I would be deeply grieving the end of the life I built in Hawaii. That life that helped me heal, brought me Mike, brought us our children, and brought us all a beautiful community.

Hawaii gave me and my family more than I could ever put into words. And yet, my world is still turning at the idea of releasing into the waves and letting go.

The other truth that I faced was being energized by the idea of a new beginning: spending holidays and birthdays with a house full of family, our children experiencing even more love, and flowing with each season again (although I could definitely do without the winters).

Part of the reason I was able to stay so grounded throughout the transition (while running my business, finding my son a school, packing, looking for a place to live, supporting clients, and building the Embodied by Design™ Certification is because of my ability to accept and hold all of these truths and stories at once.

Here are 5 lessons that I’m embodying in this next phase of my life:

These lessons have helped me in holding more responsibility that I have ever held before while I’m also in the process of breaking old anxious-attachment patterns, rewriting old stories about my ability and willingness, standing strong in this responsibility and calling on others for support.

And as I learn these lessons, I am aware of how this mirrors my role in business as I step into new levels of leadership. I’m learning how everything I desire in my business requires me to be clearly connected to my vision and the legacy I’m building.

I’m learning how much we all say we want more clients, more money, more visibility, more recognition, and yet we hide and ignore the responsibility that comes with it all (this could be a whole other blog post).

But today, all I can focus on is where I am right now. I am immensely grateful for my mom, brother, and sister flying out to Honolulu airport to spend the last 10 days of being on the island with us. I took that time to be fully present with my family as we said goodbye to our home, our friends, and everything we built there.

Now, I’m ready.

Everything came into my life to help me step into the next phase of Krystal Woods LLC: the Embodied by Design™ Practitioner Certification. If you're a coach, healer, guide, mentor, etc., and you know you want to learn Human Design for your business and your clients, apply today.

It is a tumultuous time to say the least, but I know on a cellular level that within the chaos is the growth, the transcendence, and the peace. If you're in the thick of things right now too, just know that I see you and I know you'll come out on the other side of this as someone you're proud of.

Thank you for reading. I love you!

Oh and if you'd like to watch a recorded live video of me talking about our big move and what's coming (and cry with me), you can do that here.